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  PRAISE FOR The Best Laid Plans

  “Realistic, funny, and honest.”

  —HUNTLEY FITZPATRICK, AUTHOR OF MY LIFE NEXT DOOR

  “Fresh-voiced and heartfelt, this debut pairs irresistible friends-to-lovers tension with vital questions of first love. It’s a witty, welcome entry in the rom-com resurgence.”

  —EMILY WIBBERLEY AND AUSTIN SIEGEMUND-BROKA, AUTHORS OF ALWAYS NEVER YOURS

  “An authentic, hilarious, and heartwarming debut, The Best Laid Plans is the pitch-perfect rom-com you’ve been waiting for!”

  —KASS MORGAN, NEW YORK TIMES BESTSELLING AUTHOR OF THE 100 SERIES

  “A laugh-out-loud, sex-positive story about love, lust, and complicated female friendship. Keely’s voice is spot-on and her trials and tribulations are funny and relatable to anyone who’s ever been a senior in high school.”

  —LIZ LAWSON, AUTHOR OF THE LUCKY ONES

  “Filled to the brim with heart, The Best Laid Plans is a raunchy and hilarious quest to get it on—and all of the hijinks along the way.”

  —ASHLEY POSTON, AUTHOR OF GEEKERELLA

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  CAMERON LUND

  The Best Laid Plans

  An imprint of Penguin Random House LLC, New York

  First published in the United States of America by Razorbill,

  an imprint of Penguin Random House LLC, 2021

  Copyright © 2021 by Cameron Lund

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  To the friends who have seen all the worst parts of me and love me anyway

  CONTENTS

  Praise for The Best Laid Plans

  Cover

  Also by Cameron Lund

  Title Page

  Copyright

  Dedication

  Now

  Then: Junior Year—September

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  Then: Junior Year—September

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  Then: Junior Year—October

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  Then: October—Junior Year

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  Then: Junior Year—October

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  Then: Junior Year—November

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  Then: Junior Year—November

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  Then: Junior Year—December

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  Then: Junior Year—January

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  Then: Junior Year—February

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  Then: Junior Year—May

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  Then: Junior Year—June

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  Then: Junior Year—June

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  Acknowledgments

  About the Author

  NOW

  IT TAKES ME A SECOND to realize I’m not in Jordan’s bed.

  My head is pounding—a throbbing ache at my temples—and before I pry open my eyes, I’m struck by how bright the light is on the other side of my lids. I reach a hand out, expecting to feel Jordan’s warmth beside me, envisioning his smile, the crooked tooth that only makes him cuter. I’ve been waiting half my life to wake up next to Jordan Parker.

  Instead, my hand touches what feels like grass, wet with morning dew. That’s when I open my eyes. Because I’m not in bed at all. I’m on a lawn chair in Jordan’s yard.

  I scramble to sit up, and as I do, a wave of nausea rolls through me, my stomach twisting. I’m not sure whether it’s from the alcohol still coursing through my system, seeping out my pores like sweat, or whether it’s from the knowledge that Jordan and I did not sleep together last night, in any sense of the term. That somehow I ended up on this chair and I can’t exactly remember how I got here.

  I stumble to my feet, noticing then that my shoes are missing, the hot pink high-tops Olivia and I bought together last week. We’d wanted to match. When you match with somebody, it proves to the rest of the world you’re important; you’re part of something. And everyone wants to be part of Olivia.

  Now both of my shoes are gone, one foot totally bare, the other covered in a slimy wet sock. My knees are bruised, but I don’t remember falling. Actually, I don’t remember much of anything. Dinner with Olivia and Katie at the place downtown with the endless breadsticks and the waiter that never cards; piña coladas and margaritas and daiquiris, because the best drinks are the kind you can take pictures with, that make it look like you’re on vacation and make everyone else on Instagram jealous.

  I remember leaving dinner, arms thrown around each other’s shoulders, laughing so hard in the Uber it felt like I might pee. Then later, dancing to Lana Del Rey in Olivia’s room, helping her apply the perfect smoky eye. The feel of Jordan’s arms around me when we got to his house, the way his cheek felt scratchy against mine; the smell of him, something earthy and exciting, a thrilling reminder of our plan for later.

  But the rest of it is a blur. How did I get out here on the lawn? And why didn’t anyone bring me inside?

  I pull my phone out of my pocket—thank god I haven’t lost it too—and check the time. It’s nine a.m., which isn’t as late as I’d usually sleep after a party, but isn’t that early either. I must have been out here for hours. I don’t have any texts, which is unusual. In the mornings, my phone is typically buzzing like crazy—conversations happening on every app about the night before. Did you see Brett and Darlene making out? How drunk was Katie? You looked so hot last night. Love ya, babe. Love ya love ya love ya. But right now, it’s quiet, the screen darker than it’s been since sixth grade, back when I was still Pukey Penelope. Back before Olivia discovered me.

  I can’t help the buzzing fear that something is wrong. Because if everything were normal, I wouldn’t be out here. There’s something I can’t remember, something I’m pretty sure involves Olivia. I can feel it in my gut. And I’m scared of what she might say.

  Olivia has always had a way of telling the truth to your face and making it sound like a kindness, her dazzling smile tricking you into thinking she’s on your side. Maybe next time, don’t be such a sloppy mess. Girls like us are better than that. It’s just I’m not usually on the receiving end of it—not since we became best friends. These were comments meant for Katie, who’s always a little too eager
and embarrassing; for Myriah, who cries in school over bad grades; for Romina, who always ditches us to hang out with the guys. No, I’m always on Olivia’s good side, the one she laughs about it with later.

  But maybe I’m overreacting. I probably told my friends I was heading home and then couldn’t get a ride or something. I bet this chair just seemed like the best option at the time. When I go inside, everything will be totally normal. Olivia will be asleep on the L-shaped couch with Katie, grumbling and hungover, but happy to see me. I knew you wouldn’t disappear before breakfast sandwiches! she’ll say, laughing and unpacking the eggs and cheese and muffins we bought yesterday to prepare for today’s hangovers. Jordan will be upstairs in his room, the bed with the fresh sheets he washed just for us, because last night was meant to be special. Our first time.

  Jordan and I officially started dating last December, but I’ve been in love with him for years. He finally asked me to be his girlfriend right before winter break, and then Olivia was dating Jordan’s best friend, Kai, by Christmas. I love that we got boyfriends at the same time, and even though Kai is one of the most annoying people on the planet, I deal with him for Olivia’s sake.

  Last night was supposed to be perfect—the final night of our junior year, the first day of summer, officially seniors, the ones in charge of everything.

  Now I’m not so sure.

  I’m still in my junior class shirt, the one we all wore to school yesterday so everybody could sign them. Some of the signatures are smudged now, the Sharpie running from the wet grass. My hair is still in its twin braids, same as Olivia’s, hers blonde to my brunette. I don’t want to see my face. I’m sure it’s a disaster. I really went for it—full contour, highlight, brows. I wanted to look like the kind of girl Jordan would be proud of. I’ll have to run to the downstairs bathroom to clean up before I see him.

  Raising a hand to shield my eyes, I turn toward the house. Sun roasts the back of my neck, the heat of it making me dizzy. I squelch through the damp grass in my sock to the sliding glass door that opens up to the TV room and try to pull it open, but it’s locked. Peering inside, I see Katie asleep on the couch in a position that can’t be comfortable, one foot on the floor, an arm thrown above her head. I knock on the window, and she startles awake. When she sees me, a wave of emotions passes over her face—first a smile, then a grimace, finally settling on confusion, her eyebrows knitted together, frown lines on her forehead that are sure to cause wrinkles. It makes me nervous.

  It makes me even more sure something is wrong.

  She stands up from the couch, coming over to me, dodging piles of trash—cans, red cups, spilled chip bags—that have become a maze on the floor. Katie’s got these unruly black curls that are almost bigger than she is, and right now, they’ve tripled in size from her night on the couch. She unlocks the sliding door and pulls it open, just barely, not enough that I can fit inside.

  “Penny,” she says, almost a whisper. “What are you still doing here?”

  “What do you mean?” I say. “Come on, Katie. Open the door.”

  She glances behind her. “I really think you should go.”

  “But this is my boyfriend’s house.” Even right now—even feeling like this—I can’t help the little burst of pride that blooms inside me as I say it. Katie claims to have a boyfriend too—a guy named Matt she met at summer camp and never stops talking about—but none of us have ever seen a picture, so we’re not sure he’s real. “You can’t block me from Jordan’s house, Katie. That doesn’t make any sense.”

  Katie presses her lips together in a tight line. “I’m trying to help you.” And there it is again—the buzzing in my chest. Something went horribly wrong last night, and Katie knows what it is.

  “I guess I spent the night on the lawn?” I try to put a smile in my voice. If I can pretend this whole thing is funny, then maybe everything will be okay.

  “I thought you went home,” she says. “After everything that happened.”

  “Katie, what happened?” My stomach clenches. The nausea is worse now, and I’m sweating in earnest, the sun on the back of my neck unrelenting.

  “Penny, you should leave.”

  This isn’t how things work with Katie and me. I’m usually the one in control, the one on the better side of the door.

  My brother once told me that popularity wasn’t real, that I should stop worrying about something that doesn’t matter. But he’s a guy, so of course he doesn’t get it. I told him I could rank every girl in our class in order. Olivia is number one, obviously. I’m number two, and Katie is number three. Darlene is number fifteen, because even though she’s weird, people still hang out with her to buy weed. Sarah Kozlowski, who doesn’t wash her blue hair—who pricked her finger once in biology so she could study her own blood under the microscope—is number fifty-six. Dead last. It’s not something that’s ever really talked about; everybody just knows. It’s important to know your place in the world. It gives you a road map of how to act—who to be friends with, who you’re allowed to date, who you need to avoid at all costs.

  “Katie,” I say again. “Please let me into the house.”

  “Fine.” She sighs heavily and pulls open the door wide enough for me to squeeze by. Inside, the hot summer air is trapped with the stale stench of trash and sweat. There are other people in the room, I realize. Danny Scott is asleep on the other side of the couch, and Romina and Myriah are curled up on an air mattress in the corner.

  “Thanks,” I say to Katie. “I’m gonna get cleaned up. I feel like roadkill.”

  “You look like roadkill,” she says back, which I should have expected. She shakes her head, pausing before she adds, “Are you okay?”

  “I’m fine. I love the fresh air.” I know I sound ridiculous, but I can’t make any of this a big deal. Not if I want the story to go away.

  I’m about to walk into the downstairs bathroom when I’m stopped in my tracks by a familiar voice. “What the hell are you doing here?”

  Olivia has just appeared at the top of the stairs and she’s looking at me like I’m the enemy. Her blonde hair is out of her braids—so that we no longer match—and her skin is fresh and dewy; Olivia’s hangovers don’t show on her face. She’s still in the same junior T-shirt as I am, and I can see my message for her there, right over her left boob: love you forever. I want to read it to her, make her remember I’m the girl who put it there only yesterday.

  “Hey, Liv,” I say, forcing out a laugh. “You’ll never believe where I slept last night.”

  “I don’t care where you slept.” She folds her arms, looking down at me with a sneer.

  “Oh . . . okay,” I say, still hesitant. “Should we start breakfast?” We’ve made breakfast sandwiches at every sleepover since middle school, and even though our sleepovers have now turned into parties, we would never let the habit die. Maybe right now, the sandwiches will make everything better—will smooth over whatever went down last night.

  “So you’re just gonna pretend you don’t remember?” Olivia puts her hands on her hips, and I know that eggs will not magically fix anything.

  “I don’t remember, Olivia. I mean, I remember parts of last night, but if we got in a fight or something, I’m sure it wasn’t a big deal.” My voice is really wavering now, and my nose starts to itch as I hold in the tears. Katie sits down on the end of the couch, watching us with big eyes. The others are waking up now too—Danny yawning and pulling out his phone, Romina and Myriah laughing quietly, whispers back and forth like the hiss of snakes. I can’t cry, not in front of an audience.

  “How convenient for you,” Olivia says.

  I rack my brain, trying to think of anything I could have said to offend her. But everything yesterday was so fun. It wasn’t a real school day—the teachers dismissed us early because we were all so hyped up on summer. We gathered in the field to sign each other’s shirts, but Danny had sneak-atta
ck pelted us with water balloons, and soon it was all-out war—Olivia and I teaming up on Jordan and Kai and dropping balloons on them from the second-story stairwell. Then we’d gone home and dried off and gotten ready to go out, laughing and dancing around in her room. Olivia had been excited about Jordan and me. She’d looked up silly sex tips online—the ridiculous ones from Cosmo that I swear no one has ever tried in real life. We’d read one that suggested throwing a handful of pepper into the guy’s face while in the act and died laughing so hard Olivia fell off the bed. I’d brought a little pepper shaker to the party with me as a joke and when I showed her later, she’d screamed.

  Whatever happened to ruin all that must have been bad.

  “If I said anything that hurt your feelings,” I say, “I’m sorry.”

  “You’re sorry,” Olivia repeats, her voice flat. “Well, that changes everything.”

  “Where’s Jordan?” I start walking up the stairs, pulling off my sock when it squelches into the carpet. Whatever went down between Olivia and me, I know Jordan will take my side. I need him to tell me that everything is going to be okay.

  “Why would you care?” Olivia laughs, but there’s no humor in it, and suddenly I’m terrified. Is this all about Jordan?

  “Liv, what are you talking about?” My voice catches, and I have to clear my throat. “I love Jordan.”

  She steps to the side, blocking me from passing. Jordan’s room is across the hall at the top of the stairs. I can see the bumper stickers on the door: KEEP TAHOE BLUE, BOB MARLEY, SANTA CRUZ BEACH BOARDWALK.

  “Oh really? Did you think about him at all last night?” she asks. “No, wait, you can’t remember anything.”

  “You don’t live here,” I say, dread pooling in my stomach at her words. “Let me talk to him.”

  She pauses and then smiles. “Okay. Let’s talk to him. That sounds fun.”

  She steps aside, and I walk past her and up to the door. I push it open and then there he is, lying on the bed, a sheet twisted around his bare torso, dappled sunlight shining through slits in the closed blinds. He’s beautiful—tan skin and clean, hard lines. I’m not the only one obsessed with Jordan—we’re all half in love with him. I’m just the lucky one who actually got him.